| School is such a routine nowadays. Wake up, go to classes, offices hours here and there (which, by the way, is so amazing!), more classes, then study study study. Of course, that's not really what happens because I insert swimming and club activities and movies/shows and my wonderful funny roommate bonding time  This semester I'm semi-happy with my work ethic. Why semi? Well, I'm 5 lectures behind in one class and I'm writing on xanga... Yet, I know I've been working in my classes because I actually felt alright after my midterms. There are those questions that I silently, or sometimes not so silently, despair over, but it's no longer the "man, I'm dumb... but it's like okay, I'll try to study more later... or work harder". Psychology class has proved to be somewhat useful. As far as keeping in touch with old friends. Bhargav and Daniella are definitely at the top... but sadly I don't get a chance to chat up with them too often. I'm going to try harder... because honestly, if I can't keep those two, I can't keep any friends. Others are, of course, busy with school, post-college plans, boys/girls, social lives... etc. So what am I busy with? School naturally; friends... eh..., definitely not church, which is not a proud moment in any shape or form, actually it's shameful... If I knew this is the me back in HS, it would utterly disappointing. It is disappointing. I'm disappointed in myself in that aspect. But the thing is, I haven't stopped believing... it's still a part of me, but I am lacking in fellowship time, and yes, it has definitly affected me in certain areas of my life... So what will I do about it? That is the question. Other topics: social life -- not really anything, TBP is cool and all... but the certain glamour/charm it first exhumed has faded ... I guess it was like a "relationship that went stale". Yes stale. And there's Nick. I don't know what's going on there really. I'm very confused about my own thoughts and feelings... I don't know if I'm in it for the right reasons... actually I'm not quite sure what the right reasons are anymore. Yea I care about him and like him and stuff, he makes me happy, etc., and it's great when things are great... but sometimes things just get so out of hand and sour it's ... disappointing yet again. I've been disappointed in myself ... so it's time to do something about it... but where do I find time? Where? It's sort of nice that xanga's fading, so people generally don't read anymore and no one reads a long boring post from someone who rarely posts anymore anyway. So in anycase, this is just my documentation of one gloomy, overcast afternoon on the 8th of November, 2007. Don't get me wrong, I'm not this pessimistic... it's just a combination of things that is making me weary of the routine of life. But I'm not complaining.. in fact, I'm very thankful for this routine, because lots of people probably dream of having such a routine. I'm thankful for friends, even if it's brief and "succinct". I just felt like using that word. And, I'm thankful for what I have... Thanksgiving is approaching... not really the time to be gloomy. After this while I'll be back to normal. Back to normal, giddy, silly, crazy me. You'll see. Or maybe you won't see, but that is what will happen. Because time and time again, God is faithful. That is the moral of the story... yes, it's very random, but faith carries you a long way, and despite everything that has been going on, I know it'll be okay. It's never not okay. Things will be okay. |
) said that being optimistic means a healthier living. Yes, I have to be healthy if I want to accomplish ANYTHING! 
... until next year! yay! she's coming back! yay! haha okiedokie. i don't wanna work on my homework anymore! poopoo
